"Awful, Awful, Awful, then there is a Moment."

A few days ago, it was Mcrae's 15 month check-up at the doctors office, which is an hour away. I always brings Rhen along, I think just to prove to myself that I can take two out of the house by myself.  So I loaded the diaper bag with treats, books and whatever keeps them entertained.  When we walked into the office I put the boys down on their own seats gave them both a book and waited in a line to check in.  They both sat there, not a word out of them, or a movement.  I was shocked but proud.  I then returned to sit between them and they still just gazed at their books and were completely quite!  I felt so proud again, it was the best feeling! Next we headed to Wendy's we ordered and found a place to sit.  The boys just ate their food and teased me a little like usual.(There father has taught them well!)  Stared at the other kids who were extremely noisy.  Rhen of course had to mention that it was not good manners to yell.  I thought wow... you have heard me!  It was such a rewarding feeling to know that I can do it, I can leave the house by myself.  You always see the girls leaving the Mall or Walmart just bauling there heads off.  I am so afraid of that, so I never go unless Justin can come with me. 
Today we ventured out again, except to Preston.  After the errands were done I took the boys to Artic Circle which has a play land in it.  I was so impressed with Rhen, for once he didn't fight me.  We ordered, sat down, and he says "When I'm all done eating then I can go and play, huh mom." It just made me smile all over!  And he did just that.  I never worry about Mcrae, as long as their is food he doesn't care.
As more and more cars pulled in the parking lot, with kids running from every car I was beginning to wonder how it was going to be.  (We have had bad past experiences in fun lands that I, the mom, am still trying to forget about.)  I thought about not saying anything but then I had to!  "Rhen, remember, as soon as you hit or you are mean to somebody else, we will go home."  I got the nod.  It was so releaving to WALK out of there, not running or ducking my head, because my kid just beat up an innocent little boy.
I have to remember theses times because so often all I remember is the the bad.
It is like the movie the Back-up Plan.  "It's awful, awful, awful, and then there is that moment."
Ok so it is not really that bad.... but it makes me laugh!

Kids at Christmas

2011

This year I am going to post at least once a month so that I can record what the kids are doing... I have to follow through because they are growing up so fast.
Goals..... I have a few but I hope if I start they will become habits!
- reading the Book of Mormon by myself
- following a weekly schedule of chores and house cleaning
- season my 5 year old horse
- go with Justin once a week!

To sum up 2010

It was an extremely fast year! There was lots of fun and memories made. We have now been married 4 years and it is crazy to think that we have 2 kids. (3 year old and 1 year old) But everything is how it is supposed to be. Justin and I are now self employed. Justin takes care of the cows and I take care of the kids. It was our first year to run our own cows, we learned a lot and are excited for the years to come in this profession. I did get to adventure out with him on the road trips and the pretty scenery as we went to check cows. Rhen even got to come a few times when we took the four wheeler. I finally started riding again in August, we at least for myself. I road-triped a lot with Bo Jane as we all tried to take care of kids and barrel race. The crazy things that we think we can do as mothers... but it always seems to work.
Rhen has grown up a lot this year. His personality will be my biggest trial. He is very strong willed and very aggressive. They aren't a good combination. Hopefully we can curve him so that he will turn out right. He is also very kind though, and he means no harm. He always finds the way to melt us. He loved jumping on the tramp with the sprinkler under it. I think that was the highlight of his summer. We took a mom and tot swimming class together, going 2 times a day. It was awsome because he loved it and it made him so tired. We went to Lagoon again. This year he was a little more timid, but he still wants to go again.
Mcrae is so different than Rhen. He is sweet and cuddly. He will always give you a love. He started walking around 12 months. He got 4 top teeth and 2 bottom teeth all at the same time at 6 months, but it never really bothered him. He likes to show off and have our attention. When Rhen is gone he knows that he can play with everything and he boils over with excitement. He always is smiling and and even a little cheesy! But he does know how to through a fit. Which I just think he has watched Rhen and then went about it in his own way.
We just can't imagine it anyother way with them.
We are happy that the year is over but we are excited for this year. We hope we will be able to have just as great of year as we grow with our family. We are excited for 2011!